After doing some back reading, I have totally realised that I forgot what my goal was for the year.

Year 2008 will be the year I sort myself out once and for good. I should figure out what I need and want to do and start working out how to get there…

But I don’t know, I just can’t decide, I’m in a horrible state of mind where just I can’t decide anyythinggg, though come to think of it…maybe it’s not that I can’t but it’s moreso I won’t, I think I’m too scared. I’m too scared of getting it wrong…

But after some more thinking, as I was driving back in the dark in my car yesterday from nipping out to the shops (of all things) I thought to myself. So much is so complicated and messy in life because people get stressed out and tense too easily. I mean heck just look at me mother fussing and stressing about EVERYTHING. So I think I decided - Year 2008 will be the year of no stress. The year of go with the flow, and if something goes wrong then yeah fuck it and carry on.

The year of no stress.

Have I been successful so far? Kinda and kinda not. Things have been peving me off and so forth but ultimately I’ve been more optimistic that the year before.

I think I would like to make an amendment on this and from this point on I declare that ‘Year 2008 - The year of no stress and no fear’

Got to crawl out this little niche I’ve made for myself and stick my neck out and find out what happens. Because having fear is like the root of my issues - fear stops a person from doing what they really want in life. Fear makes you apprehensive, negative - it makes you doubt yourself even before you get off the mark.

Fear stops you tapping into your potential - it stops you from standing on your own two feet.

One of the things I said to my work colleague yesterday is that about 50% of success is about how much you want something. It’s not about intelligence, or talent or skill - if you want it bad enough it will carry you through all these things.

What do I want so badly that I’ll stick my neck out for?

What do I want so badly that none of my faults or lackings will stop me?

I know what I want. But just how badly do I want it?

So from this point on, no stress and no fear - thanks?

Daily goal for tomorrow: Update my blog and start to tweak a new theme.

Secondary goal: Process and upload photos and catch up

Righty back on the daily grind till Monday night when I shall be nipping up nurf for a quick skint. I have loads of random jobs to do before I go though.

Stephie is getting me my V ticket tomorrow since I can’t afford it yet <3 I hope she’s successful, plus she’s going - yay! It’s going to be a good bunch of people going. I have to wake her up for the sale of the tickets ha.

Have successfully cleared my room and now sleeping on a mattress in the spare room tonight. Yip.

Time for bed.

19days till pay day!

I’m going to download me some new music. I shall check out Bjork since David was listening to her a while back.