Sleep deprived, don’t feel it oddly enough despite only having four hours sleep. Should be a nice easy day though - nothing too hectic on a Wednesday which is cool. Can’t wait till the day is over however so I can sleeeppp. Sleep would be good. Mmm Sleep. Slleeppp…SLEEEPPPP

Nothing much to say really, watching lots of cartoons, got rest of Long Way Down ready to go. Pretty chilled out. Pretty broke. Texts to twitter still don’t work. Can’t wait till the weekend. I need sleeep.

Yeah.

I’m currently caning through episodes of Animals of Farthing Wood on Youtube.

Seriously, I’ve been proper giddy about it since discovering them. It’s like I remember watching these when I was proper proper young. I read some of the books. I just loved it.

I don’t know how many people remember it, I guess it depends if you grew up on BBC 1 (with the likes of ed the duck!) or you were a ch3 kid, then again I did crossover for the likes of some badass How2 action, or maybe some Art Attack. Anyhow, it’s still damn good to watch even now I’m in my twenties. Who cares about specifics (like can animals actually drink water from a swimming pool?) .

My favourite series is the second one, when Fox and Vixen have cubs, and then there’s scarface. Cause the baddie in the last series isn’t so good with Bully.

Man it’s so sad that I remember stuff like this, and I’ve probably lost a lot of cool factor by going on about my admiration of a TV show featuring talking animals. (There goes my man points).

But ha, who cares really? I’m off to enjoy a piece of my childhood.

Just watched the first episode. Totally badasss, found myself just smirking while watching it. I already know what’s going to happen because I’ve read the book, but it doesn’t take away from the show at all.

It’s sooo good, and it makes me want to go travelling soo much.

Darren and me have occasionally been talking about doing some sort of road trip sometime. Though it’s a bit hard at the moment what with lack of financial security and all at the moment. But ideally I would love to go on a bit road trip next summer. Summer 2009 is my vague target for a big road trip. Darren’s thought about driving to Australia, though we’re thinking more realistically driving to somewhere like Italy. Imagine…beating hot sun, and endless roads, new sights and sounds and visions. New people, new places, you can wake up in one country one morning, then the next morning be somewhere completely different.

Yes, by Summer next year I’m going travelling, might have to sod festivals and stuff like that though, but hey, the line ups are getting shite anyway, and festivals are becoming trendier by the year. And it’s not like I’ll have a career by then to worry about, or any real commitments. I think I would like to spend my life working, then travelling, and so forth. And when I want to settle down with a career, I’ll just be some uber freelancer, so I don’t have to deal with the office politics stuff. Or get one of those jobs that aren’t really anything to do with what you’re interested in, but pays remotely well so you can live a kinda comfortable life.

Yes. That’ll do me nicely.

Two months before I turn 24, tragic, sincerely tragic that I have barely seen anything in my life. So I must must must do some big trip before I’m 25, I don’t know why 25 as such, maybe it’s the point where I think I’ll start turning really really olde, so you know. Here goes…

I’m in a random mood today, a sort of mood where I want to just write a load of incoherent thoughts for the hell of it.

I’m in such a great mood about photography at the minute, everything feels great. Some days I feel so run down by my projects, and my mind is a blank - but I like how I’m able to somehow find something to do. I really feel I can do this, it’s like the one thing I feel some sort of success over at the moment. It’s almost like all my flaws aren’t flaws any more.

I know I can annoy people and look the most oddest person ever when I’m carrying my camera about, taking it out, shooting something weird. But meh I don’t care, though it’s nice when you get someone who doesn’t mind, in fact almost encourage you to do it. But I think this is a vibe that really only other photographers get. Sometime it’s not easy, really, especially if you’re faced with a lot of strange looks or grumpy faces ha.

I was thinking about what sort of lens to get next, I think I’d love an awesome zoom lens, just to have a go at this whole candid street photography milarky. Or I could get a badass wide angle lens for all those cool scenary/group shots I could do. Though really I would love a wonderful portrait lens, the 50mm f1.8 is bloody nice for that as it is, but I just want something a bit more versatile that doesn’t have a fixed focal length.

Definitely getting a wireless remote asap, might be a wait, but I am just tired of having that wire. And it’ll let me do things like water related stuff without fear, and I won’t be restricted by a silly wire.

God I wish I would stop biting my nails, I’ve totally reverted back, my fingers are sore all the time. My nails look ugly, it’s terrible.

I’m listening to Up the downstair by Porcupine Tree, not a bad album, it’s definitely an album you have to listen to as a whole. Very instrumentally, some great music going on though, very proggy. Really liking it, Porcupine Tree has always been a band that I can’t seem to tire of.
Off to the pub in a mo, it’s meant to be quiz but also some allowance for some catch up, I feel a bit knackered and hence somewhat passive in mood though.

Downloading Long Way Down to enjoy <3 think its about time I actually watch it.

Just finished season 2, ah didn’t take me long to get through that. Pretty ace as always, a bit crazy near the end, but cool none the less. Gripped me just like the first season, maybe less so I guess, because it was all cool and new at the beginning. Can’t wait for the next one!

The You suck at photoshop series on Youtube is sooo good, it has everything, humour, sarcasm and some badass tutorials oh Photoshop tools. Even if you don’t learn anything new then at least you can be entertained by the videos’ storyline and character Donnie.

Some other amazing things to list:

• Experimenting in photography, I really really love trying out random things, sometimes it’s so damn frustrating but sometimes you just get some awesome results in the end.
• Doing stupid fun things in photography, there’s nothing like a silly even childish bit of fun for a shot or two, yeah emotional and intense are cool - but funny things keep you rolling
• Photoshop - I bloody love photoshop, it’s such an amazing piece of software. Powerful, vast and wonderful. Of course the tool only performs as well as the user’s ability, but still, just the things it can create are sooo good. Again, the joy of ’shopping some stupid immature thing is enough to keep you smiling
• Animation, now I’m not usually an animation freak, but there are some things I see that I can really appreciate the skill and ability involved in producing it. You can see why the creator would have put in hours and hours and hours, and then can sit back at the end with this fantastic sense of satisfaction at the result.

Why is there just SO much cool stuff like this around? It’s great, woo for times of the digital age!

In other news, I’m feeling quite tired and a bit oddly sick. And I don’t want to get up at death o’clock tomorrow morning. Mergh.

I don’t know if it’s just me, but I think the sky looks more saturated today than it has been. A proper striking blue with those sort of clouds that are big and fluffy and bright white.

Went to bed insanely late last night, well okay 3am, not that late really, though I didn’t sleep too well because for the past two nights I’ve been having weird dreams. Last night’s one was actually a bit of a horror-filmesque, it’s bugging me now because I can’t remember the details but I do know it involved corpses or something crazy like that.

Anyhow, I have work tomorrow at ungodly time again >_< and it’s going to be pretty busy, lots to do, but I don’t mind too much. I get a bit of desperately needed money, and then afterwards I shall go for a coffee/tea with Amy and Emma ^_^ for a catch up. Ah it’s been nice catching up with people because I really have felt socially deprived round here lately. However the consequence is that I’ve been pretty knackered by the time I do get to see these people - ha. As a consequence I’m not sure if I’ve even been good company at all or not - I just realised now that I think I owe my friends a few catch up tales haha, since I totally forgot I hadn’t told them about things.

Mmm toast, one marmite and one with good strawberry jam ^_^

I quite like this No Doubt album.

Hmm, what shall I do today?

Has been a good day; caught up with friends, work was alright, got some positive news in other ventures. I really feel like opportunities are starting to arise for once.

I got up mildly sleep deprived to work my four hour shift that went with ease and no stress, then met Laura in town for some loitering and lunch. She’s just became an Auntie! Then I head home to two pieces of promising news. I had a nice tasty shower, followed by starting some S2 Heroes action. I then cook myself up some curry (well cooking chicken and heating some sauce from a jar babeh), which was tasty and fufilled my curry cravings. Then I shoot my threesixtyfive, I actually had an idea for once, as well as do some other odd bits and bobs. Then I head out to the pub and catch up with Dannii a bit while doing the quiz. Also had the opportunity to check out the zillion photos of Laura’s newly born niece and some videos - pretty cute - Dannii and Laura were cooing and their female genes kicked in (I swear they’re totally going to get broody feeling, though Laura has declared solidly that ‘Noooo not ready for a baby yet!’). I also have tiramasu and tea. Afterwards I return home, and then talk to Nick on the phone, which was nice (though the female gene of ‘Ohhh, sighhhh :(’ has kicked in only three/four days since last seeing him, which is gay). Then I felt like listening to some unplugged Alice in chains while I processed my daily photos and struggled somewhat with my threesixtyfive shot - though I think I finally got there in the end. Now I’m here, typing this blog entry, chewing on a sore nail, feeling pretty shattered, but in good spirits, looking forward to a nice long sleep tomorrow before work.

I think the only not so good things is that I split my bottom lip because it was already cracked, and the sleep deprivation that has made me look like a zombie, and the money consumption = baddd :(

I am now going to publish this entry, then pass out in bed.

Do I always end up working in jobs that involve crazy working times?

For example I’m working 5AM….yes 5AM on Saturday, though what makes it more weird is that it’s only till 9am. Which means I’ll have the rest of the day to myself still…

In other random news, I got Heroes S2 on the go since I think it’s time I catch up on that, and I was starting to get bored with nothing to watch.

Twitter got back to my error report email to say:

Hi,

Thanks for your email. This is a bug; we’re working on fixing it. I’ll be in touch with you when we’ve resolved it. Sorry about that, and thanks for your patience!

Cheers,
Crystal

Great, so I can read all your lovely twits but I can’t respond when I’m out and about on the go. Ah well.

And dammit, I don’t have time to finish this brew.

Must try and be productive today even though I will most likely be shattered.

Off to the exceedingly early but short grind…

Just finished catching up with my flickr contacts, comments etc etc etc - god it’s kinda been a chore, but one that’s secretly delicious and I don’t mind really…

Oh, the above photo is by fellow ThreeSixtyFiver Chloe, she’s a little crazy and I love her feed because it never fails to make me giggle inside. She’s only seventeen but she’s full of life and donned with her little point and shoot already proving to be a bit of a budding photographer.

None the less, I do feel like my photography lately is lacking, I’m so busy rushing around to actually take time to stop and think about what I’m shooting and how and even why. I feel like I’ve reached a kinda certain restraint when I’m out and about with my camera, I almost feel…self concious? I’m not sure. But I don’t like this feeling, and I need to break down these mental walls I’ve begun to build for myself.

Today during my break at work, I was just finishing my sandwich on a bench, and I saw this guy carrying a dslr (maybe a canon), he walked along, then stopped by this random guy sat at a table and he must have just asked him quickly if he could take a photo - then he did, and just carried along on his way. I loved that, I loved how casual and relaxed he was in doing it, and without fear.

And on that note I’m off to shoot my threesixtyfive, no ideas yet, but I’m sure I will think of something. It’s the last day of smiles! So shall see…

Hmm I should do a photography lighting course too, that would be ace.