Sleep deprived, don’t feel it oddly enough despite only having four hours sleep. Should be a nice easy day though - nothing too hectic on a Wednesday which is cool. Can’t wait till the day is over however so I can sleeeppp. Sleep would be good. Mmm Sleep. Slleeppp…SLEEEPPPP

Nothing much to say really, watching lots of cartoons, got rest of Long Way Down ready to go. Pretty chilled out. Pretty broke. Texts to twitter still don’t work. Can’t wait till the weekend. I need sleeep.

Yeah.

I’m in a random mood today, a sort of mood where I want to just write a load of incoherent thoughts for the hell of it.

I’m in such a great mood about photography at the minute, everything feels great. Some days I feel so run down by my projects, and my mind is a blank - but I like how I’m able to somehow find something to do. I really feel I can do this, it’s like the one thing I feel some sort of success over at the moment. It’s almost like all my flaws aren’t flaws any more.

I know I can annoy people and look the most oddest person ever when I’m carrying my camera about, taking it out, shooting something weird. But meh I don’t care, though it’s nice when you get someone who doesn’t mind, in fact almost encourage you to do it. But I think this is a vibe that really only other photographers get. Sometime it’s not easy, really, especially if you’re faced with a lot of strange looks or grumpy faces ha.

I was thinking about what sort of lens to get next, I think I’d love an awesome zoom lens, just to have a go at this whole candid street photography milarky. Or I could get a badass wide angle lens for all those cool scenary/group shots I could do. Though really I would love a wonderful portrait lens, the 50mm f1.8 is bloody nice for that as it is, but I just want something a bit more versatile that doesn’t have a fixed focal length.

Definitely getting a wireless remote asap, might be a wait, but I am just tired of having that wire. And it’ll let me do things like water related stuff without fear, and I won’t be restricted by a silly wire.

God I wish I would stop biting my nails, I’ve totally reverted back, my fingers are sore all the time. My nails look ugly, it’s terrible.

I’m listening to Up the downstair by Porcupine Tree, not a bad album, it’s definitely an album you have to listen to as a whole. Very instrumentally, some great music going on though, very proggy. Really liking it, Porcupine Tree has always been a band that I can’t seem to tire of.
Off to the pub in a mo, it’s meant to be quiz but also some allowance for some catch up, I feel a bit knackered and hence somewhat passive in mood though.

Downloading Long Way Down to enjoy <3 think its about time I actually watch it.

I don’t know if it’s just me, but I think the sky looks more saturated today than it has been. A proper striking blue with those sort of clouds that are big and fluffy and bright white.

Went to bed insanely late last night, well okay 3am, not that late really, though I didn’t sleep too well because for the past two nights I’ve been having weird dreams. Last night’s one was actually a bit of a horror-filmesque, it’s bugging me now because I can’t remember the details but I do know it involved corpses or something crazy like that.

Anyhow, I have work tomorrow at ungodly time again >_< and it’s going to be pretty busy, lots to do, but I don’t mind too much. I get a bit of desperately needed money, and then afterwards I shall go for a coffee/tea with Amy and Emma ^_^ for a catch up. Ah it’s been nice catching up with people because I really have felt socially deprived round here lately. However the consequence is that I’ve been pretty knackered by the time I do get to see these people - ha. As a consequence I’m not sure if I’ve even been good company at all or not - I just realised now that I think I owe my friends a few catch up tales haha, since I totally forgot I hadn’t told them about things.

Mmm toast, one marmite and one with good strawberry jam ^_^

I quite like this No Doubt album.

Hmm, what shall I do today?

Has been a good day; caught up with friends, work was alright, got some positive news in other ventures. I really feel like opportunities are starting to arise for once.

I got up mildly sleep deprived to work my four hour shift that went with ease and no stress, then met Laura in town for some loitering and lunch. She’s just became an Auntie! Then I head home to two pieces of promising news. I had a nice tasty shower, followed by starting some S2 Heroes action. I then cook myself up some curry (well cooking chicken and heating some sauce from a jar babeh), which was tasty and fufilled my curry cravings. Then I shoot my threesixtyfive, I actually had an idea for once, as well as do some other odd bits and bobs. Then I head out to the pub and catch up with Dannii a bit while doing the quiz. Also had the opportunity to check out the zillion photos of Laura’s newly born niece and some videos - pretty cute - Dannii and Laura were cooing and their female genes kicked in (I swear they’re totally going to get broody feeling, though Laura has declared solidly that ‘Noooo not ready for a baby yet!’). I also have tiramasu and tea. Afterwards I return home, and then talk to Nick on the phone, which was nice (though the female gene of ‘Ohhh, sighhhh :(’ has kicked in only three/four days since last seeing him, which is gay). Then I felt like listening to some unplugged Alice in chains while I processed my daily photos and struggled somewhat with my threesixtyfive shot - though I think I finally got there in the end. Now I’m here, typing this blog entry, chewing on a sore nail, feeling pretty shattered, but in good spirits, looking forward to a nice long sleep tomorrow before work.

I think the only not so good things is that I split my bottom lip because it was already cracked, and the sleep deprivation that has made me look like a zombie, and the money consumption = baddd :(

I am now going to publish this entry, then pass out in bed.

Do I always end up working in jobs that involve crazy working times?

For example I’m working 5AM….yes 5AM on Saturday, though what makes it more weird is that it’s only till 9am. Which means I’ll have the rest of the day to myself still…

In other random news, I got Heroes S2 on the go since I think it’s time I catch up on that, and I was starting to get bored with nothing to watch.

Twitter got back to my error report email to say:

Hi,

Thanks for your email. This is a bug; we’re working on fixing it. I’ll be in touch with you when we’ve resolved it. Sorry about that, and thanks for your patience!

Cheers,
Crystal

Great, so I can read all your lovely twits but I can’t respond when I’m out and about on the go. Ah well.

And dammit, I don’t have time to finish this brew.

Must try and be productive today even though I will most likely be shattered.

Off to the exceedingly early but short grind…

Okay…this actually ain’t too bad…Being awake at 6amish listening to Smashing pumpkins, eating cereal even though you’re not really that hungry yet it just…seems like the most logical step.

Off to work for four hours then going to return wondering what the hell to do with myself for the rest of the day…

Look on the bright side, it’s a glorious sunny day - the sky is singing, the birds are swaying ( - Dylan Moran), and after I finish work I can go do some tasty photolising action. Speaking of which, I think I shall get my 18-55mm sent off again since the AF has been broken on it for a while. Though I’m not sure, it could be the  body’s sensors they need cleaning? I’ll see what they think and whether I should send the body or lens

Gear I need

• Lens hood
• Wireless remote switch
• Micro gorilla pod or similar
• A good zoom lens
• A nice wide angle lens

Gargh, I wish my mother would stop harassing me, it somewhat infuriates me when she’s even TRYING to run around after me at 6am in the morning. I think she’s bonkers, why can’t she just let me get on with it, and trust my sense of judgement. GARGH too many words of a pissed off vein to spill for me to have time to do it, so I’m going to feck off and I’ll vent later.

Read this thread…

Things you can’t imagine the queen doing

Teehee…