Catch up
So, I’ve reached over Day 200 in Threesixtyfive - woo!
And things are a little shaken up, well…basically I may or may not have a job any more. You see the deal is that now I have to apply to one of the positions advertised instore or face possibly losing my job.
This should make me scared, but I don’t feel scared, I’m kinda wanting to losing my job - not that the work is that awful as such. But I know that place is bad for the soul. It takes happy go lucky people and turns them into tired worn out unhappy people. I have to make a decision between whether unemployment is a more attractive option than what I’m doing now.
I could argue to myself that I still miserable while unemployed, because I can’t go do the things I want to do due to lack of funds.
So now I need to think. Do I become one of these people who try and do something they love for a living? Or try and earn as much money for a living to try do something they love?
I don’t know, I’m too much of an idealist to handle the realism of the situation, but I need to decide what to do before it’s too late.
In other news, I went to the zoo last weekend, it was much fun and I would make a big post about it but I think you get the idea from my Flickr set instead. I did wish I had a polarising filter though just to get rid of those nasty nasty reflections. Oh and I saw some rhinos humping, educational.
Download Festival is coming up, not that excited yet, as my tickets still have not arrived! I’m getting a tiny bit worried - but it’s ticketmaster and I’m not use to their ticket mailing ways…so shall see. It better not be raining for the occasion :/ else I’ll need to find me some wellies or something.
I feel so…lost.
I just wish I could concentrate that’s all. I feel all mentally tense, like my head is holding its breath or something. Why is that?
Been seeing old schoolie friends lately, I miss seeing them, I enjoy the catch up chats and all that. Would be nice if we could all gather up and get together again sometime. But it’s just so so hard these days. And it seems to get harder and harder as time goes by.
I’m adoring photography at the moment. Just everything about it. I’m hungry to try out things, learn about it all, I want to be GOOD at this. I’m nowhere near good yet - I’m barely near adequate - but I have such a yearning for it, I love the inspiration I get from looking at something that’s just amazing to the eye.
Nic/Uka has got some work featured on this site, the photographers there are awesome, just inspiring, plus of course Nic’s work is just awesome too, no matter how modest he is about it. He’s the sort of photographer I want to be, someone with their own set of distinguishable ideas and style. I’m no way there yet, I’m still fumbling along, just testing the water in everything before I can really learn what I want to shoot.
So that’s it for the time being, I need to slap myself round the head soon and quickly get a move on with this whole life change thing.
Things I want to achieve by my birthday:
- A trip abroad somewhere, I don’t know where, but somewhere
- To stop working where I’m working now and never ever have to go back
- To have a fully functional photography portfolio website
- To have a printed photography portfolio
- To add a flash gun to my camera gear
- To reskin this blog site
Oh yeah and one more thing…I have a new boyfriend…this goat
Baaa!