Fucking Reading/Leeds lineup, it’s actually remotely half decent. I just KNEW this would happen. Fucking fucks.

*sigh*

A rough outline of the future

Thurs 20th - Work then out for the evening in town with people
Fri 21st - Shopping for room stuff?
Sat 22nd - Work, gay, go for a drink with Maggie and others?
Sun 23rd - Pubagain?! - See Ele
Mon 24th - Go to Leeds, Damn Duck time, get sushi
Tues 25th - SUSHI! No girly shopping tho, lots of rushing around, I’m blaming kev
Weds 26th - Work (PAY DAY!!!) - pay off credit card
Thurs 27th - Work :( 4 hours IT WAS GAY!
Fri 28th - Work - Horrible
Sat 29th Mar - Work (Ungodly 8am start erk) - move rooms, nap
Sun 30th Mar - Work, gay - it pissed me off AGAIN!

Stuff I should get done soon -

• Plan new pc
• Buy new pc bits
• Build new pc - erk
• Install crap/set up pc - double erk
• Buy new stuff for bedroom - still need curtains and rug and giant bean bag
• Move back to bedroom
• Buy Derren brown ticket
• Beef up CVs

Ways to actually GTD -

• Eat healthier
• Sleep healthier
• Stop spending money on anything (apart from pc and petrol and lunch)
• Don’t waste time on the board
• Exercise urgh
• Be strict on self and targets

SIX FIVE THREE TWO ONE DAYS TILL Hurry up PAY DAY!!

I love making lists, I don’t know why, they make me feel better about things. I feel like I’ve achieved something afterwards though in all actuality I haven’t.

Do I want to travel, or do I want to work? Or do I do one then get bored and do the other?

What do I want to do? Where do I want to go? Will I ever break this cycle of thought?

I’m stressed…over curtains believe it or not.

Seriously, how does one get stressed over curtains? Well. I’ll tell you. I ordered three sets which have now all arrived and though I can pick a colour out the three I currently need to return all of them of reorder another set again! Argh frustration.

I also brought some things from the sale at work, and though I really one one jacket I brought (75 quid to 30 quid barrrgainnn) I can’t afford to keep it as I’m totally broke this month. Like painfully broke. I just gave into the retail “oooo it’s in a sale” weakness, it’s nice to waltz about in it for now heh.

I also brought some other odds and ends but I’ll keep them, they’re okay.

I need to move back into my room today. Urgh, so not in the mood. I should set up my music in there though, that’ll sort me out.

Oh shite I don’t have any vinyl for my 365 tomorrow ermm…

I want my new pc NOW!

Must sell stuff on ebay, but scared.

I’m a wee bit scared of my financial situation at the moment.

No worries, if my calculations are correct once I’ve picked my curtains and returned the bits and bobs I don’t want then I should be left with a bit more money to get by this month. Like said it’s going to have to be a very quiet month though.

I have a nice chunk of four days off next week, can’t wait, I’ll use the time to sort things out. Hopefully build my pc as fingers crossed it’ll arrive by then. Just checking now it says it’s being shipped on Friday woot. Hopefully I’ll get it by early Friday and I can spend the day destroying building it. I’m so excited, I’ve never built a pc from scratch by myself before. yeah I’ve fiddled/changes parts but never the whole thing. I better get my laptop on standby though just so I can run to someone in case I break something :/

I still need to listen to the Mercy all the way through as an album. I’d listened to the songs I’ve missed out and I love a few of them too. However I was thinking last night that this album has a very more commercial vibe to it in some songs. Plus a lot more backing vocals, more fancy guitar, the songs have been carefully produced and tweaked but I feel a certain about of raw energy and all out Jimmy’s vocals are lost. It’s a pretty album but I miss Jimmy’s screaming (though it is used as a climax in some tracks.)

I better get ready for the daily stupidly early grind. At least I’m only in for six hours. Must stay motivated. I need caffeine.

OURS ALBUM LEAK ARGHHHHHH!!

Usually don’t touch leaks, but I’ve been waiting for this album for so long and I adore this band…

So sorry people against leaks, but after the day I’ve had this is going to make it all better <3

I am going to leave work at the end of May. I’ll have to hand in my notice at the beginning of May. I am going to leave regardless of whether I find myself a new job or not, and yes I understand how this will affect job seekers allowance bollocks.

Don’t ask about the details or the whys. The details don’t matter. The fact of the matter is I’ve came to the decision in my head. It scares me this thought - but my happiness is worth more than the pennies I’m paid.

It’s important I set these dates. I need to scare myself into a change.

1. What have you sold?
My soul to high street retail

2. What do you want to change?
EVERYTHING! In fact can  just tipex out my entire existence and start over please?

3. What does your answering machine / voice mail message say?
I don’t have either, you’ll just get some standard message from O2 telling you to fuck off no one has answered.

4. Where did you go to school?
My first one was a cool little village school, I learnt loads, then I moved and went to a shit shit shit village primary school and I despised it, then I went to high school - an ALL GIRLS school! that was alright but mainly shit until I reached 6th form and I had some pretty cool times. So summary school = shit.

5. Friday fill-in:
If you’d like to reach me, ______.
…then you better stretch a little further