Never found our way… regardless of what they say
Wednesday, May 30th, 2007I’m in one of those weird moods, the sort of mood where I just feel like I’m drifting about the place and feel really passive about everything around me. It’s usually during this mood I think a lot. I think a lot about life and people and things and future, and a lot about the past, yeah a lot about the past, I ponder about memories and moments and I don’t really come to a conclusion and I’m not searching for any answers either or asking any questions about it all - I’m merely thinking.
I usually write it all out of my system when I was younger, you know a real teenage thing. But instead I’ve just been doing things like listening to a lot of Portishead and Porcupine Tree and being really fucking tolerable about things at work even though right now the very idea of going to work gets me down quite a bit.
A good thing has come out of it though, I picked up my guitar for the first time ages, though I have decided I really do what to get a new guitar pronto. Maybe July, shall see.
In other news I had a surprise email from someone I thought had gone awol off the planet! An old coursemate who is finishing this year because she had a placement so didn’t finish the same time as me. But yeah she totallyy email me out the blue and told me about when her degree show was going to be. I had said when I last saw her to just let me know when it was and I would come down for it as she’d came down for mine. And she did but I was a bit annoyed cause it was during the week and I had work and all urgh. Fortunately I had a chat with a boss and I could take a day off for it so I can go down afterall. I’m kinda looking forward to it, especially to seeing my old lecturers again actually - it’s weird, I find this strange comfort in going back. It’s like the feeling of an old faithful jumper I guess.
Ha I remember on the last night out in the pub with the course people and I was talking to my subject leader, me and him had always had this quirky thing, and I remember telling him my life plan (you know get a job and travel Europe) and we talked about how the next time I see him I would look like a whole different person and everything, dressed differently and all that. But alas I am still the same…
And then right after checking out the show I’m going to drive it down to near London and meet up with everyone else. It’s going to be one immense weekend I must say, especially with two gigs and driving back for work on Monday. Ahh why do I inflict such hardcore chaos on myself?
*sigh* I wish I could just get some time out somewhere.








